This week saw the presentation of many month’s worth of my blood, sweat and tears. A major project finally finished, and was quite successful. This was something I had spent numerous unpaid overtime hours on. I spent hours working on things that I had never worked on before. Sure, I learnt new skills but I have spent months stressed out and pretty much overwhelmed. It has been normal for me in the past few months to get home from work at 8 or 9 o’clock most weeknights. I have spent weekends on video conferences with our collaborators over east and overseas. A few weeks ago, at Mothers Day lunch, I nearly fell asleep at the table. So as you can imagine my family is not really ecstatic with me at the moment. But it was a project I really believed in and I think had the potential to truly create good things. Which it did. This was a project that was really extra special.
But…I then watched my boss get thanked for it.
And, it got me thinking. I was initially devastated. And still am, a bit, days later. I was later thanked by the rest of the team, which I really appreciated. But this was the biggest, hardest, most difficult project I have ever worked on, with little help while also managing numerous BER projects. I generally don’t go around telling people about the things that I do (hence even this blog is anonymous and only three people know that I do it!) but should I? Do we need to beat our own chests to get attention? Is this the only way to get promoted, to get better clients and projects?
And am I just being precious – is it even relevant what one member of a team does? Should I have expected to get thanked? Maybe the accolades should just go to the boss anyway, as it is their name on the door and their successes (and failures) as a company which matter in the long-term.
On a second note, I get asked A LOT about why I am doing this anonymously. There’s a few reasons. I work for a medium-sized firm, and know quite a few architects in Perth. But I’m really just a junior. I don’t want my comments taken in the context that they might be the opinions of my bosses or my firm. And they would probably get a bit of flak from some of the things that I say. So perhaps when I have my own firm things may be different! Also, I have heard rumours about the Institute not really appreciating criticism. Most of all though, I really want this forum to stay as independent as possible. I don’t want to have to suppress news because it might not look good for my firm, or look like I’m promoting us. I don’t want this blog taken over as the opinions of XYZ Architects. I want to try and be as honest (although obviously personally biased!) as possible when posting here. I also don’t want this to be too much work, and I like having an architecture-related interest that has nothing to do with my office.
But it is something that keeps coming up, so maybe I need to have a bit more of a think about it.
Once again, thanks for reading!